Am I Really Socially fucked up ??

Have you ever realized the lonelyness or the isolation especially with everyone around in case of a social gathering like the marriages or the wedding receptions et. all and do you happen to sit in a hall filled with so called relatives whom you hardly recognize ? Then hang on you aren’t alone, I have always loved the pleasure of being annonymous ๐Ÿ˜‰ ,But the feeling of being totally isolated despite being in a hall filled with hunderds of so-called relative(or people) is one worse thing one could experience.

Having grown up in a nuclear family, i didn’t feel the need for anyone other than my own family members. Since i was totally devoted to studies amd i hardly took time off to reach out to any of the relatives during the young age, and now in this juncture although i know most of them are closely related or even remotely related i hardly know how they are related to me. Sitting close to an aunt or uncle who speaks to you about each and every childhood moments but despite having all the nostalgic moments and all the persistent try of recognizing the aunt or uncle goes in vain. Although i know i’m a loner but i hate being lonely when it comes to such occasions and the fact of feeling of being isolated in a really big gathering makes me feel as if i’m in a enclose with all stranger. But is this situation because of the nuclear family or ย the society in which i grew up, but i knew somethings going wrong these days.

Though i have a liking for being left alone still sometimes i feel i should have someone close to me taking care of me, talking me through the boredom and even making me lighter in case of desperation. Although i stay calm in most of the situation i really feel the need for someone giving me company despite having friends around me. I personally think that i’m getting desperate these days but is this a case of being socially fucked up for a long time or am i really missing a close partner or is it cause of my lean patch of social life . I’m totally in turmoil. This thought has really made me thinkย  am i ready for being one socially fucked up brat any longer ?

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8 responses to “Am I Really Socially fucked up ??

  1. I feel as though someone has stolen my thoughts and written em. No I am not accusing you of any copying. But I think we all belong to same boat of socially fucked up brats….

  2. all u need is a girl friend, buddy!! and if you already have one, then er…errr….. ๐Ÿ˜€

    Dont worry, once you start getting socially close to your relatives, you would feel suffocated. so this state of yours is better ๐Ÿ˜‰

  3. hmmm even brought up in a nuclear family i mingle up with relations in social occasions… i think u should start mingling with them rather telling u r being socially fucked up… bcoz u earn many or not u have to earn more people… After ur parents u have to carry ur relations for all good and bad things hapening in ur life…

    i did comment a big one ๐Ÿ˜‰

  4. i guess part of this..i feel too..im blank when im in a social circle! All i would ned is some entertainer who would shift everyone’s focus to him/her and make me jst sit/watch and laugh :). .dont try hard to break the reluctance to mingle – trust me its hard..let it be slow and natural..its better! advice from another – schizophrenic ;P

  5. @ aravind : all the while i thought i was alone in this regard. ๐Ÿ™‚

    @ vimal : yeah yeah very much.. life’s different when we have them around us ๐Ÿ˜‰

    @ tweety: its not about mingling .. its the sensation in your heart that keeps on telling you that you dont belong to this herd of people .. regardless of how close they are to you in relationship.. these days there is a big gap between a real relationship and a traditional relationship..

    @ verbivorehere: lol.. advices are always welcome and yeah i always look for distractions when somebody sits close to me and cuddles me ๐Ÿ™‚ and yeah i’m not really trying to break loose of this mindset.. i’m actually in a state of dilemna .. especially when i’m doing nothing and would like to be engaged in something or the other

  6. well,
    i know the fact u like to be anonymous (ur blog is anony right?)

    there is diff in being lonely and in being social. Needing company at functions is different to having a needing partner ๐Ÿ˜‰

    Also i enjoy relationships or relatives. these are the ppl who will come to your home when things are good or bad! Dont expect close relationships from them as in talking weekly or daily or even to understand you! But they are always there but its just that the mindset!! By no means i am suggesting you to get closer with ur relatives but thats what i feel abt my relatives whenever i meet them in receptions or marriages ๐Ÿ™‚

  7. i can sum this up into 1 small phrase!

    “ow yes! u r socially fucked up!” ROFL..

  8. @ Rajath: well to be frank within the family circle i’m one.. and i’m sure i’m not alone ๐Ÿ˜›

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